HAPPIEST YEAR TO ALL OF YOU HOPEFULLY

I TRULY TRULY WISH EVERYONE THE BEST POSSIBLE!!!

i have noticed i cannot not love..
i blame, even hate for periods..but it never lasts..
i cannot not love..

i LOVE
i APPRECIATE
i FORGIVE
i THANK
i LOVE...

everyone i happened to stumble upon in my life..

everyone..

I LOVE YOU

hello everyone and anyone who stumbles upon this!

Im about to get myself a camera.. "Canon Digital Rebel XTi 400D"..
so whoever has a comment about this may he/she speak out now..please..a pretty one

i know its real good, but still speak out, help me a bit

and ofcourse any recommendations are most welcome

OWKAAAY!! EDIT!!

m in between Rebels here!!!!

Canon EOS 400D (XTi) /&/ 350D (XT)

HELP!! again

thanks everyone

i want a RASTA hair do!
need to find someone to make me one..
they keep tellin me i have too soft hair..BULLSTUFF!!!

RASTA hair do..NOW!

exams..are..over..
finally..
but then..uni starts in 10 days..
so thats 10 days break?..

..I feel like talkin about something else now..
ive been having a real real hard time for quite some time now..and i need more then a one-day time out from these stress loaded 'all day lasting' momentums! (dont comment on that expression..no i dont know where it came from)..
i know its cliche all this 'Im stressed thingie', but I am people!
there's mama, with the job she has despised all her life, I know its not her fault shes stressed all the time, but its not mine nor my brother's either!
She's easily annoyed..she's really temperamental..she constantly finds something worth yelling about..Im tired..not the angry Im tired..Im really tired..I hear my mom yelling at me and i just dont listen anymore, i dont hear her anymore..
i remember perfectly two days ago..she was yelling..I was watching her scream at me from the doorway..i remember seeing her go red and pale again..i remember feeling my eyes burn..i remembering not hearing her anymore..my ears literally felt shut..it felt like having a helmet on my head..i can swear hearing myself breathe and my heart beat..for the first time in my entire life, i walk towards her, tell her 'stop', and shut the door in her face..
she dint reopen the door..i expected her to come in again and even more angry..she dint..

I applied for interior design, took the entrance exams, passed, was fifth on the list, thats real good. but the presence is 100% obligatory, so i cant do it; i cant quit journalism..so i return home nearly devastated..me doin design was the idea that kept me merry these past few weeks..and now this..
i get home and im more then feeling down..mom has to add to it.."you're not smart! you're dumb! a smart girl wouldn't think of doin this! why would you quit journalism cause of something stupid like design?"
I never mentioned quitting journallism, i was upset for not being able to do design, wasnt I?
i dont know if u see, like i do, the point here..
my mom is officially falling apart!
she is not well
she needs to regain herself
my lil brother needs her to
I need her to
I need her to quit teaching
I need her to quit
quit blaming me so much
quit tellin me things she knows i know
quit being so overprotective
quit being so overprotective
quit being so overprotective

quit being so overprotective

I need her to know shes tearing me..
I need to be left to screw up
Im sick of avoiding that
Im sick of always doin right cause ive been made to
I literally feel heavy
Im very tired
I feel so frustrated
my eyes are burning
I have this load in my chest all the time

I sat and 'thot' to god..
god who isnt mad at me for not capitalizing his name.

well..yea..here i am on deviantart.instead of revising watever i can stumble upon for my exams..which are this week btw..starting from tomorrow btw again..well i dun even know why im puttin this in here..guess cause i dun want u to get all worried abt me if it happens and i dun show up in some time..QUITE some time..i feel completely unprepared for the exams, thats why..uh!! m so frustrated!! ill be done by friday.then take some few extra weeks recovering from my predicted screw up..well..wish me luck!!
aw maaaaaan..i cant believe its already 19:27!! man do i want this over?!?!